Muffy is such a virgin
I’ve been robbing myself of time to think things to myself.
I always turned to distractions. My friends, my music, porn, films, places - I’ve basically turned everything into my own personal distractions. Distractions were my best self-defense. Perhaps, somehow, I knew that giving myself the time to actually think would very much overwhelm me. That’s why I never felt remorse, or guilt, or regret, about everything I’ve done and made a messed of before - I chased after every possible distraction I could get. I never allowed myself to think them over; to think reflect them over; to actually learn from it and move on forever.
And so, present self, read this, and learn to not seek for distractions for a while, until you realize everything you need to.
I feel so alone.